● @ Saturday, February 14, 2009 ●
This is my 351th post in this blog.
well... Kelly is feeling kind of under the weather lately. Physically, she is having 2 ulcers- one on the inner left lining of the mouth. The other one is on the tip of her toungue which hurts most. it hurts me even when i speak as my toungue will need to touch my mouth at times.
next. i have been feeling pretty moody since Wed as i was offered this job and i had such high hopes in joining this consultancy job, but it turns out that i have to advise ppl when to or when not to sell stocks. yes; stock & shares. dam* retaded, frankly. how am i suppose to be able to close at least 3 deals to allow me to earn $900 per month? i'm sorry to disappoint, but i don't wanna starve. but i was like so excited to get this consultancy job? i even wore make-up and dressed up real nice (my opinion), for the interview at Eunos. i tied my hair up for the first time, with this new hairstyle. in case u don't get it, what's bothering me is that i need tyo take almost half a mth to go for this consultancy training, which is not paid. and i don't get paid for basic salary either. i only get cash if and only if i close a deal. so it makes the job pretty suck if i close no deal. :Z
so i went to work on Thursday feeling pretty moody and to make matters worst, one of my colleague is making me run errands throughout the entire factory. there is like a total of almost 10 departments in this entire factory, and i am scuttling over to half of them, looking for ppl and files. :/ and i climbed UP the staircase like.. NINE times that day? that makes me visit the stairs a total of 18 times since i need to climb down, if i had climbed up isn't it? :|
so i've been feeling much more stress at work startintg this week, which actually makes me enjoy it better actually. work is much more meaningful these days. i no longe feel sleepy at work; only drainned out or pissed, which makes work feel more of a reality. haha.. anyway, my past 2 mths of work was an extremly dull one. anyone will doze off. hehe.. =D
on friday i gave someone a suprise. i am glad i made the latter happy. and i must remind myself that i gave myself this promise: NO expectations was made to the person, when that person accepted it. The acceptance was just a mere one that cannot be inferred to mean anything at all.
anyway, i feel quite useless recently too. like what's the purpose of me if i can't help my best friend's biggest obstacle in her life? i just hope i can help her find a light to some path. yeap. just cheer up, my friend.
and to make myself feel my down, my dad coincidentally brought me and my bro to suntec city. and........... there's teh NTU talk at the Suntec Convention Centre today. so...i didnt feel liek going but since i am in the area, why not just go? so i went there, got some brochures and left. i looked through it, and realised that aside from Biology, i am keen in Communication Studies and Pyschology. and upon reading further, i read a comment saying that in order to be considered for Communication Studies application, u must get least a B for GP. what rubbish. fine. it's a language-based course but i was disappointed and thus irritated. then i look at pyschology and remembered what my seniors said abt how tough it is to enter that course. then i started feeling demoralised.
so let me jst warn u what i think. i keep thinking that the day i collect my A level results will be the worst day fo my life, and i just feel like going Clarke Quay on that night after collecting my results, and drink with my friend till i drop dead. HAHA. this sounds very retaded now then i type it out. but i hope u can now feel the severity of my situation? well of course i hope fo rthe best of my results. but my 2 years in JC has been horrifying expereince and frankly, i have never seen a grade C or better in my 2 years of studies i think. ya it is that BAD. so u can't blame me for being so pessimistic abt my results.
anyway, as for the sucky consultancy job i mentioned earlier in the blog entry, i was invited to go for training every weekends- including sunday, from 11-5PM. i was supposed to go today- sat, but i skipped. perhaps i'll go tmr- 14th feb. i'll see this more of an enriching and socialising event than a job training. i'm serious about that. i'll just try to mingle with teh crowd for teh thrill of it. =D
anyway, there's this site which made me happy today. try this out:
http://www.jango.com
you have to key in a song of ur choice, and it will automatically help u find similar songs or artist that you may like too. (: but don't expect it to be so updated.
signing off, kelly.
p.s. i surfed the net since 4PM today.and it's 12.30 am. my eyes are sore.
and pss. Joel is so obviously attached already. i was like irritated. not that i want to be with him *BIG scoffs*. but how can he.. get over everything so FAST? **strangle his neck** i know it's already 2 years, but i think he is so desparate. *hmph*
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