● @ Friday, April 13, 2007 ●
where should i start? i only know that i've enjoyed my week tremendously! i can't remember the last time i had such an enjoyable and meaningful week. my joy started last sunday evening. i went online to do my project work PI draft... i started at about 4PM but i had only started officially at about 1am. so what had i been doing all those while? well i was chatting online busily. apparently, it was a guys day whereby i have no idea why but i was talking to about 5 to 6 guys at once, instead of the usual one or even none. while i was chatting online, i could sense that 3 had the same intentions. one of them was er... rather desperate. started pleading. its an omg cus my ans is never. the other was taking the beat about the bush way so i just pretended i sense nothing. the last one, well.. is half here half there lor.. haha.. you know who you are ba.. lolx.
i guess my previous paragraph is rather ambiguious. haha.. so well.. hmm.. ya lor. i shan't say much further. but something happened that night la. some decision was made. it's a matter of time that people will know one day i guess. although its rather strange to hear his original relationship with me, i think it is perfectly fine. cus i'm so in love with you now, you know. waha.
tuesday was nice. he bought phantom of the opera tix, almost 200 bucks for EACHtix! its an omg to me. he also gave me something else. i love heart shape, and i think its beautiful. (: we ate at Cafe Cartel at IMM. teh food on wednesday was also as wonderful. thurdsay was a short dinner but it was definitly meaningful. but i diddnt see him today. >.< missing you... arghz. and i "scolded" him today for allowing himself to be soaked under the rain when he was already having a fever. its an omg! the afternoon rain was so really heavy! *cries* :(
anyway, i just want to say that i dont believe i have made a mistake, for i have already known him for about 2 years before this week. and he's definitly one with a good character and heart. and whats best is that he's matured.. (: and he's definitly someone who blows me away very easily. haha.. till i keep smiling at everyone around me, liek some lunatic. hahahaa.. ("i swear i can fly"- everytime we touch by Cascada)
the following para is dedicated to certain ppl.. i fyour name starts witha J, perhaps its dedicated to you. j***** or j*****. opps. both has the same number of letters lol. i dont know why but my social life always revolve around males with the letter J. . haha.. arghz.. except one person la. the odd ball. =X
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i am feeling quite guilty actually. i have failed to turned down a guy directly. and i am now er.. using this blog to tell him? and to think that he;s online now and i can't pluck up the courage to do it.. arghz. i just don't like having to tell one the truth. but sometimes, one ought to tell otehrs to truth isn't it. well, to the person whom i've not replied to your monday sms, well.. i don't believe i am suitable for you. my personality doesn't match yours and i am certain that things will turn out wrong at the end of teh day. yupz. and anyway, i've never believed that you have truly wanted me. you are just trying your luck out, isn't it. and i dislike it when guys don't take me seriously.
and er.. to the guy whom i see in school everyday.. the one whom i had referred to as flirtatious and i had confirmed your suspicion on the MRT a wk ago.. well, i want to say that i was sincere with my words in the past. i was, and i never lied. But however, times have changed and so have i. that's the reason for my sudden change of heart. and btw do remember to emphasised word that time- "infactuation".
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