● @ Tuesday, May 23, 2006 ●
I'm here to tag again,a lthough i'm trying to refrain to blogging too much as it will push all my previous entry down, leaving fewer of my older entries for you guys to read with conveniently.. but u can always look at my older entries (the archive) by scrolling to the right side of the pg. meaning that you scroll to your right la.. hai...
Was chatting with ms portia tan on msn earlier.. and i was so amused!! I had to inform her that teh principal criticises the teachers practically at least once a week! I had to tell her leh! I went "omg" manz. You mean i realised it but not her?? hai.. cus the principal has just done so this morning. so what the beep lor. everytiem she does that, i wil look up and stare at the principal who was mocking about the teachers without a slightest hint of embarrassment. what kind of person is she man. criticise the teachers, right in front of their students. i can't stand that attitude that mrs oei has lor. ridiculous; nono... with quotation mks.
Some problems cccured yesterday. and teh whoel situation was just circulating around one classmate lor. she talked bad about me. ha.. again, ppl are always caught. i dunno how la.. but it's not Lye Fong... I was pissed sia. she said that i had invented the stuff about jensen liking me? wa liaow manz. i went so furious. but fine. anything lor... it's not important whether he likes me anot... but i was aggrivated when that person thinks that i was making a story out of the whoel issue? kao lor. anyway it was the class who found out themselves. i diddnt go around barking about it lor. tehy found out themselves cus of that idiot jensen and a few boys.
but i should not call jensen an idiot isnt it.. we are now friends; honestly. haha... teh school was chaotic yesterday. we spent teh entire morning doing nothing while supposedly teh whole school are playing sport games? So teh whoel class went to stupprt or play the games. But ginny, celestine, kapo, myself and jensen locked ourselves up in the classroom in totally darkness and closed teh windows. cus teh DM went about finding ppl who are illegally staying in teh classroom. haha.. and guess what.. jensen and i ended up talking to each other. but i dont care about him la... he's a weirdo.
argh.. my butt aches. haha..
anyway.. some rumours about nicholas liking me.. and the dunno who said that i created it myself. again, i was pissed off. it was others to observed and spectaculated that he likes me. and not me barking around that he likes me. siao lor.. hai.. i just find teh whoel thing very sickening. and nicholas doesn't believe it i guess. up to him la... i am too absorbed in other problems to bother much about this issue.
hai.. i know it sounds weird. but i found myself being very turn off to advices given by others. esp from certain ppl la. probably cus i'm not too fond of them or their manner of telling me really puts me off. for instance mrs koh went to me yesteday and talked to me in class.i was initially very angry with myself and i was doing something la.. but she came by, said a sentence which i have forgotten now, and that made me cry. and my mood for the entire day was destroyed totally. and this person came along and gave me advices on good-will. but i duno why but i just feel very annoyed with her for talking. hai.... and that made me feel guilty.s igh...
and i am sick of crying. crying just destoys my day completely. i was supposed to meet mrs koh on mon... but i ended up cancelling it cus i wasnt in teh right mood. and today it was cancelled again as she's busy. so im probably meeting her tmr and i simply dread it. hai...
I find myself being very underconfident with myself, and i lose interest in studying. sigh... i guess i need more time to recover teh grief that i had over my results. but unfortuantely i have chinese Os next mon. i've not done anything. in fact, i was studying other subjs earlier. what's the matter with me man. hai.. perhpas i should have taken CL B instead. hai.. i feel so disheartened. my hopes appear to be dashed constantly and nothing ever seems to turn out right. hai...
Mr ouyeong called me earlier.. telling me about some what ar.. forgot. and it inspired me. hai...
shit. just talked to nicholas. and now i[[ feel liek crying. i dun wish to talk already. just feel liek crying now hai... i'm tired. im sickof everything. everything's disappointing, fustrating and upsetting me. i'm sick of it. hai..
i wonder whats wrong with me man. one moment im happy the next im not. crazy. hai..
12.15am
Savour Every Moment
