● @ Sunday, November 13, 2005 ●
I am just simply excited and happy this afternoon as i am able to used my room computer for the internet. To be honest, this is the first time i am ble to used the internet freely as its unlimited broadband. My dad signned that up a year ago but unfortunately for myself, my computre was lousy and hence restricting me from having the luxury of using the computer freely. But that scenario no longer holds true in my life!
Now i am able to tell people that my life does not consist of just purely studying. haha.. Had band practice yesterday and mr wong said something which made me alittle disturbed when he said that there are students esp in the first class, that have life that is only studying. that was when i realised that i am one of those who leads such a pathethic life. haha... cus i do not watch the TV and my computer used to have no internet access.
Now i have no idea what to say when months ago, i am so full of words and emotions to pour out.. hmm.. ya! my birthday. ha ha.
My birthday has tolled to 18 since my prev entry about my bday gifts.. but.. erm.. actually.. let me see.. 22 people promised me actually one la.. i will not mention the other 3 people's name.. one of them is she la, lyefong.. the one u dun like one.. wana her to stay with that bf of hers forever.. sadistic man u.. but i am not going to spare the one group of people as i can't turn a blind eye to that group as i see them almost everyday and there are so many ppl!!!!
actually to be frank i find them pretty disappointing lor.. they are pointing their fingers to one person which is amnita. true.. i see that amnita is the problem but how can u blame on just solely one person?? Currently my motto for the section is that in every problem, the fault lies in everyone. yes; everyone and i really mean it. We went to unity yesterday and hamimah had frgt to bring a stand and radhia started saying her off. and i could tell that hamimah was close to tears as ms tan had scolded amnita in front of the unity and tanglin band. C'mon lor.. hamimah has enough of it le and she's close to tears so what for still nag at her?? I immediately scolded radhia for blamming hamimmah the problem. And said that it was everyone's fault and elaborated.
hmm.. i am a little off track isn't it? back to where i was.. er.. ya. bday right? haha/.. frgtten. well.. ya.. i remb scolding radhia the other time when she told me tt my bday present would be late as it's with amnita. and she started blamming amnita. and i couldn't stand it and i started telling her off that it was not just solely amnita's fult it was also radhia fault. amnita may have forgotten but she could still do something abt it isn't it?? she could called her the night before to remind her or something right??
Firstly, their preparation skills sucks and secoondly, there is a lack of sincerity in every single one of them. Even if amnita has forgotten about it, one of them could have reminded her isn't it? Looking at the matter deeper, you can also infer that they do not care about my birthday. they are just doing it the sake of the Clarinet section culture. Hence i am utterly disgusted with every single one of teh Clarinet section members excluding my 2 dear seniors. I will say more about them later. It just makes me grin thinking about them. I told amnita that she can may as well
give me the harry potter bk (bday present) next year if it's after November as my revision would be starting. And ya! After my O levels next year as i would not bother having such luxury from this year November till the end of my O levels next year.
And evidently, she had not given me the present but at the present, I do not bother to care about a bday present from the clarinet section other than my 2 dear seniors.
Both Joyce and Tan shin had given me a bday present each! And i was so delighted about it. I find it really nice is someone still bother to get ne a present even after my bday has over. Cus i personally find it useless and v sian to buy one a bday present when their bday has aldready overed. One drowsy morning, i got to the canteen and slumped myself onto the chair half asleep when joyce suddenly came over and gave me my birthday present. Apparently i was delighted over this gifth of hers which is a pink watch. haha.. sounds familiar? ya.. my uncle gave me a pink watch too.. But his is made of plastic/ cloth material while joyce's one is silver metal. Isn't it nice of Joyce? I hadn't expect any gift from her actually.. haha..
Lyefong gave me a white bag which is pretty nice since i've never got a white one before. My gugu gave me 100 bucks. and er.. Jensen gave me a year book diary. I felt flattered by his gift but um... i was apologetic to say that i would still not accept him. But my qs for myself is why are girls always apologetic upon rejecting a guy? It's our right to choose and hence others should respect our rights isn't it? so we should not be feeling abashed or apologetic upon rejecting a guy.
3 more gifts that ive yet to mention.. hmm. ive forgoten le.. haha.. ya.. bai lu's figerings.. and ka po's keychain... ive mentioned it before.. and ya! Shuqing gave me a pink pencil case with stripes and a toblerone chocolate which is nice! all these are the gifts that are given after my bday.. in other words, 7 other kind souls.. haha.. when i told my dad that there are 18 presents for my bday, my dad was amazed and asked me if i am the "dai yu long" (loan shark) in the sch or something.. and that everyone must give if not they are an enemy of mine. lol right.. haha..
i wana go le.. anyway.. hmm.. anyway.. i met jia ming on one of the days when i went to sch for both my bio and math lessons.. was supposed to take a bus to jurong east to meet a friend to do our hw together.. had not want to take 143 initially as its a longer route to JE compared to 51. but i suddenly just want to take it and i saw jia ming lor..... than we chat lor.. what else. i sat behind him as i am a shy person you know.. haha.. ya lor.. hmm.... well.. that night i went home about 8. than cried for an hour... hmm... ya.. i cried for an hr till i was forced to sleep early that night as my eyes hurt terribly.. cus this is the first time my teras last so long.. don't seem like ive cried? haha... cus i am good at faking you know. what for let u know. haha.
But after crying, i feel happy and i do not know why and not a single person on earth has known about what has happened and i doubt i will ever wish to talk about this inccident. But of course, this inccident will never be forgotten. ha ha. This inccident marks a revolution in my life you know. haha.. and so far, there are changes le.. indeed there is.. in my preception. and i have no idea why i am happy.. i guess it's because this confusion of mine is finally settled. And i sure call it quits. yet, i am wondering if its true that it's no cus of (2) and not just purely (1). Hey guys what do u all think? hahaha... i am siao right.. when none of u know what i am talking abt. ;)
let me change a subject. haha~
something more interesting..talk about jia ming... lolz...... mr wong talked about love recently and he said that he advised ppl in JC and poly to start looking for a soul mate as later go NS cannot find le.. cus all male no "za bo" (female). i just couldn't help giving groans when i heard tt... and ya.. no comments la. only want to say him what the heck man. haha.
anyway, mr wong sms'ed me yesterday reminding me to buy him a bday present which is next wed. aiyoh right, isn't he? i had initially not wanted to give him one de.. but this is his 2nd time reminding me.. so well.. i guess. i will. besides, i can tell that i am one of those students he liek given the fact that he tells me about his personal life.. he asked me for opinion abt what he should do ... its his social life la.. abt his gf.. pretty personal..
so i guess i shouldn't go around barking abt a teacher's social life.. wait. not gf.. besides, he always praise me in front of others.. and v nice la.. haha... he finds me what ar.. frgt le.. rational; that's what mrs koh feels of me too. she told me tt face to face and other stuff which made me go really red.. not during parents meeting.
i do not even know her at all! i only know that she's a math teacher of 3E3. i have never even smiled at her in my entire life and she can talk to me in such a friendly manner. goodness.. i am shocked by her friendly nature. haha.. well.. she told me that she was keying in our request to drop subjects.. so she called me.. and in the form we did not leave our contacts down ar.. she advised me not to drop physics.. but i would have to thank her call la.. cus she reminded ,e to ask my dad to write a letter for the dropping of phy.
i would like to go le.
anyway, lyefong is now crazy.. she drew so many pics like a kindergarden kid. =P
cus i had downloaded msn msgr 7.5 and windows media 10 this afternoon. and i am so happy with this software!!! =)
cya!
8.15PM.
goodness.... i have typed for 4 hrs.. haha
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