● @ Thursday, July 28, 2005 ●
Tell me, if you will not be unhappy.
The clarinet section; once the biggest section in the band, with 10 people in it,
has now dropped to only a pathethic amount: 5.
Amnita left. All 4 juniors of mine left, leaving one boy left for the section.
All 5 clarinettist left within a day: on Wednesday.
As a sectional leader, the blow is aldready hard enough.
And now, people is expecting me to shed tears cus of this.
Just because, i did not shed a single tear throughout the whole issue, does that means that i am too relaxed; not bothering about my juniors??????
Cus i have just found out an hour ago that people aree now saying that I am at the fault as i seemed to calm.
Cus others cried. BUT. They cried cus of ms tan. THEY said it out themselves. It WAS NOT due to my sect ones. What happened on wed and disastrious. Ms tan cried in front of the whole band, and left. She even told us not to continue for sectionals for that day. She wanted to leave Tanglin. And she was crying. It is all pathethic. I shall elaborate more on Ms Tan in a greater detail another day.
But the problem here, is that people are pointing their fingers at me even though they had said that it's the fault of the whole band. The sec 3s 4s and mr wong had a meeting after the band was dimissed at 4. Someone mentioned about who it was, to blame should we blame solely on someone.. This was what it meant..... Of cus, i felt agitated but was later relieved when rachel said the fault lies with the whole band.
Whatever it is.
Be it people saying goodness what,
it is still my fault.. thats what i feel.
Who else do u have to blame if you do not blame the band???????????
And what's annoying me is that people said i looked to calm.
Do i have to be blacked face????? Although an angry face is not suitable for such an occasion.
Do i have to cry??????? of cus, i had almost cried. tears were starting to form but i quickly blinked it away.
anyway. I find it both amusing and ridiculous. I am not such a heartless creature, that will not feel upset when half of mys ection is gone within a single day, for god sakE.
Savour Every Moment
