● @ Saturday, April 09, 2005 ●
Hieee..... I miss my com.. haha.. anywa.. was at friendster and also duno how i foolishly stumbled onto prisilla's page. was super disgusted when i happened to glance on this stupid new item they had, which was the horoscope function. hmm.. A function that was so awful. It read "Da gurlz and you are flying high together". I want to puke when i saw it. Looked at her pics and they were disgusting. she chose one of the pic which has one that her legs were so awfully exposed. nvm.. she just want to let the whole world see how faceless she is. No face at all. Can sit like that and take picture. ThAn also can post it on friendster. ..... enough of her. waha..
The 3 prestige Clarinet came yesterday. Including a Miyazawa flute. The flute was intended to be given to SinLee but Ms Tan gave it to Mitchell instead as Mitchell is the best player in that section. Due to this, Sin Lee cried. (Now, now.. Dun you grin Jess. haha...) Actually i feel that her act of crying is quite justified as ms tan had all the while assured her about the flute. After Mr Ong brought it in yesterday, sinlee was naturally excited and jovial about it. yet ms tan made a sudden and rash decision to change her mind about the owner of the flute. Would'nt you feel disappointed if you are in her shoes? That was yesterday.. Ms Tan said she wanted to bring the 3 clarinets home to oil them.. So wehad no chance to feel them yet to say, play them.
The alumnis came today. ShuQi, ChenGuang, See Ting, Shuadiah and Aishah. And of cus, our Nuraini. These experts arrival naturally made Nuraini feel inferior. Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..... gd news man.. waha.. im so bad. ShuQi is better than that central gravity!! heeeeee.. :) He is so arrogant in his playing. Yes, he's good but his arrogance really put me away. Not by his clarinet swaying (or should i say rocking??) but by his constant means to get our attention on his playing. yayya... he's good.. But shuqi is better~~~~~~~~! CG has a mellow tone but shuqi has more than just a melllow tone. She has a really sweet tone. I guess its cus of the gender? It just helps in your playing slightly better not that guys are unable to play sweetly. But doesnt it sound disgusting if i say that a boy is able to play sweetly? haha.. Now, i prefer shuqi's tone. But in terms of techinque, cg is naturally better cus he plays the clarinet in pjc today too.
Lots of events came and past away with such amazing speed that it makes it impossible for one to recall. It just seems like it has wiped out your memory completely before leaving. hmm..
Only can remember that iw as rather busy. And the teachers were kinda cute recently. haha... joking in certain way.. hmm.. Take one situatoin for example. During phy lesson, Mr Ronnie Teo wanted to call out someone. He suddenly looked in my direction. I immediately find myself looking down, staring at the tb looking for an ans to the unknown qs with a smile on my face as I had a stroong instict he will be calling me. Sure enough, he said my name and in front of the whole class asked me the qs meanwhile asking me why i had smiled when he looked at me. argh. Coda of story for myself: Ignore your instincts man....... They are going to sabo myslef. =( But i dun mind any teacher calling my name out cus i know they wont do anything crazy if i do not know the ans. Evn inf mrs jacob also nvm.. she's ok.. she cant give anyone any harm man.. haha.. =P
Another time was when i had told LyeFong happily that he has never called kelly Chua before. He kept calling calling Kelly Tan but not me. It was true. She called thrice but had nvr called me. Sure enough after i said that softly to lyefong (we were sitting at the back he's in front), he called me. ....The CL teacher is still as cute as ever.. She changed the sitting arrangement once.. She was bed mood that day.. We were allowed to sit anywhere hence i chose the left corner seat. I always sit there when given a chance. Meaning next to the back door. She missed me while she picked some naughty ones and changed their seats. By the time she saw me, she was in a better mood. She's so cute. She said in mandarin "ya, I have forgotten about you Jia Ling". Than i went aw.......... haha.. how can she forget about me... haha.. now lar.. But at that time was discussion time on the unit we had read.
Its completely dumb to read the passages in the CL tb. What's it for man. I dun care if i understand it a not. So long i get the words, its fine. Good grief the tb is pretty cheap. Cus its a complete waste of money to buy it in my opinion. Another time, she went to me and said "Jia Ling, long time no see " in manadarin. She's so cute lor.. So i just said a big "Hello!!" to her. haha.. Just want to say that she's a cute and petit teacher. And indeed she is. Cus that's her size.
How ridiculous. When I am feeling alright to talk, Mrs Jacob isnt. But when she is, I am not. That is when i would be either ignoring her or giving her those forced smile. I ignored her once during the holidays when i saw her. She saw me and i saw her. I pretended not to see her. Hence she did not look at me. Instead she looked at another direction, asking me "You staying back everyday for the band?" (It was during the holi).. Since she wasnt looking at me, i refused to reply her as there were quite a num of ppl around us. When she recieved none, she urged me for and ans. funny her.. Not looking and me when asking a qs leh.. how wierd.
She isnt in a gd mood last week. I can tell that.. Anyway.. she has a daughter called I Jacob.. i suspect its Isabell Jacob. Nice name isn't it? anyway.. she has a minimmum of 2 daughters and a tall son. see? I know.. lol..
Last wed or tue i think, was Mr Ronnie teo's last day before he goes off for his reservice. Happened to meet him while i was on my way to teh staff rm to pass the absentee list to the teacher in charge. We spent almost ten min talking. He was the one who wanted to talk to me. He just give me the impression that he's feeling lonely. Cus the thigs he asked me were rather dumb. haha.. Anyway.. He thought i was the drum major cus he finds me rather active in the band. hahaha.. No lar.. I am not the drum major. I wonder why the what people thinks i am oen of the band leaders.
It just makes me unhappy when people think that im one of the leaders. When i tried convincing xing fang tat i wasn't she seems disappointed. plzz............ and u klnow the reasonw hy lar.. cus i wana be one of the leaders. but im not. so obviously when others think that i am, i will naturaly be feeling disappointed. haha. but well.. how touching.. I am moved by thier perspective of me. wahahhahhaha.. great laughter man. duno why im typing this when im so serious now. haha. lame... its my fingers that is laughing i guess. My fingers just move by its own accord. I guess the brain connection isntr working well. My nerves is slepping le. haha.. see? im talking crap now. thats why. better stop typping. Thats how i would go out of copntrol if i want to type fats. argh. fats. lol.. fast not fats kk..
The prestige clarinet is fantastic and See ting helped me to season the clarinet. my clarinet is the easiest to remember. cus it ends with 050 while others is 051, 052. Wa liaow.. i jealous man.. mine not seasoned by shuqi and cheng guang. haha.. nvm. I have faith in see ting. she's a fine player.. :) anyway that clarinet is more than a prestige. Its Prestige Vintage. It cost about 5 thousand and 300 bucks like that according to Mr Wong. Isnt that expensive? Almost 16 thousand dollars are spent on 3 clarinets. sigh.. The clarient is fantsatic. MUst take great care man..
I feel really bad that radhia does not have one. sigh.. she went home without waiting for us today: something abnormal. hai..
due to us, the band is unable to purchase any euphoniums, cornets, saxophone and some percussion stuff. hai.. This really makes me determined to practise well and ensure that their monetyis not wasted on us. sigh.. The money came from both consecutive silvers attained. hai.. sigh.. today is sat. sun, mon and tue. 3 more days to SYF. sigh..
Anyway the band will be performing on mon morning assembly. sigh.. and ive got a large ulcer what a shit. It was due to me entering the dentist room. I tell you ar, next time the moment i enter the school's dentist door i will always remember that it has given a huge ulcer on a week before my syf. It cut my cheek, and it is a deep one. That is why it is difficult to heal and and it hurts a lot when i try gripping!! must get use to the pain when i start playing the clarinet for the day. hai.. but also my fault lar.. hai.. hopefully this ulcer will do me god in certain ways. You might never know.. haha.... Just drank water. and aw.. it hurts. stupid. hai..
Had PE on fri and that Mr Wang Yee wana me to leave my clarinet at the patch of grass on the middle of nowhere, unattended. stupid person. Cus we are going to run and i brought it along with me. When i persists in bringing it along with me, he threathened to throw it in a huge onstruction open bin. stupid person. Tha was than an RC. But RC 4 thousand over ok.. stupid person. even if 40 bucks, its still an instrument. stupid person lor.. he even yelled at me in front of the whole class. Idiot man.. as though i am at a wrong to protect the well-being for my clarinet. hmph.. he placed it in a rm to be locked in the end. But this incident led me to agree with everyone else. that he's an idiotic teacher. Leave my clarinet there unattended.. stupid.
Anyway have been hearing joyce's Eddie Daniel's cd all these while. And this track is fantastic man.. so nice! He's a great clarient player. And well.. He was the one who created our clarinet's ligature. The black leather one, that's very good. I want. to. do. my. hw. and i am so fustrated everytime i hear my classmates being unable to complete their hw. Esp if i can but not they. fustrating. They no syf lorrrrrrrrrrrr.... come homw what time? i reach home everyday 7 plus to 8. reach home so tired le... sometimes need to practice clarinet after getting home from band practice. what abt they????? They cant even get a stupid hw done. what's wong?? Listen to my blogger song... and the lyrics go: What's wrong whats wrong now.. too many to many problems? Thats what i wish to ask them. sigh.
Kelly signing off.. hmm...
A week ago, wanting the day for SYF to quickly arrive
Yet, Kelly is dreading th day of SYF now.
We need more days.. argh..
Anyway, I need to thank Jia Ming.
ya.. and my mom is well...
wierd
btw wouldbt be having lessons on both tue and wed and despise the idea of it. and there's 1 lesson of bio on wed. what the.
plus basics lesson. had a flip through on what we are going to go through this term. the topics are simpky fantastic.. stress, time managements, emotions managements, psycholgical stuff, and etc.
btw its been a long time since we have writen lit essay. and that was our hw recently. Simply lovely. =) cheerrrrrrrs/ lit essay is super chicken. and my reason for liking lit partially is due to majority of ppl disliking lit hence not doing well in it.. aiyoh.... wahahha.. thats where im happy. you dun do well in that sub but i do. hence this will result in me having higher chance in scoring well. laughs.. joking lar. heyy.. jess.. you are the lit rep.. must do well in it man!! haha.. Lit is gr8. hope u find it gr8 too.. haha..
lyefong isnt pleased with me recently and i can tell that. but she really needs to define to me wha exactly does whe wants. plz: Boyfriend or friends alone during sch hrs?? i dun like if she choses both. cus i am now having a bunch of new friends: bai lu, hai yu, mary.. besides, im getting closer with jaime, sq and xf le.. so its pretty hard for me to join all of cliques together since all 3 groups go in seperate ways. and when i join the rest, she gets unhappy. but why did i leave her sometimes in first place?? she ealy needs to understand lor. and you cant have both advantages sometime sin life. I am not so free to entertain everyone lor.. it makes no sense to stic to just one friend plus he bf when you are neglecting ur other friends too. besides i am being so extra when i am in thier grp.. thats what i feel. sigh..
everyone has thir own point of argument. hence its not point arguing. and know her well. er..... hmm.... i suppose it would best for jessica to realise the way lyefong thinks and reacts to situation. Thats when you wouldbe in a dillemma. Cus you will know very well how she's goping to react should u quarrel with her one day. vm.. find our yourself. I dislike telling others the negative points about others. sigh... but cant she tell that others is avoiding her man.. Im very open...that why those who knows me better would dare to criticise Lyfeong to me.. Cus i will just accept thier comments lor.. and keep quiet lor.. what else can i say.. everyone would be disliked by certain people.
But what's most important is that the reason people are disliking you must not be due to your character. If that's so, you are in trouble.
anyway, lyna is now the band major and her post has changed her drastically. One who is much mmore arrogant and think she's so great. A tyrant is what i describe her. she loves punishing people. AOne person fall in late, she will drop them immediately. Bit by bit. not one hwole sort drop together de lor. see the situation: You fall in late le. another person came walking late t the squad. Sh eask you to drop. drop u finish, ask that person fall in, than drop that person. stupid lor.. than if its her friends, she would take great efforts to check if anyone is looking at the person whos having the punishment. she doesnt even bother if its someone else. loads more of shit. but i shall stop here. dun wana waste time talking about tyranic leaders. bye
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