● @ Sunday, November 07, 2004 ●
hieee.. here i am. my apologies... haha.. for such a late entry.. well.. thus.. prepare yourselve for a rather long entry.. haha.. here i start.. starting from last saturday... hmm.. that's when i've sat for my 2nd math paper le.. and the first weekend of hoildays. anyway.. my reason for not being able to update my blog regularly is cus ive been rather busy and having a tight schedule, with my band dates, and my work.. yup.. real work.. im currently working for my aunt.. some paper work.. her company is "targa". heard of it before? but it doesnt matters whether you've heard of it before. so long as i get the message across to you.
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saturday.. celestine wana go out with me.. so.. okay lor.. went out with her to jurong point. yAwN. walk round and round... a feeling of extreme dullness went to me.. so.. i took up my hp, and msg'ed JiaMing... actually.. my advise for myself is strictly not to msg him, when im out with my friends. cos later ar.. my eyes will be glued to the hp.. dont need to talk to them le. however, i still msg him lor.. his msg came.. was msg'ing him back.. but lynn sms'ed to me. opened it up.. wanted to reply her... but mingyan msg'ed me.. opened hers... ugh.. so.. i wasnt able to put my hp aside, till a long period of time. i always wonder.. why people always come msg'ing/ talkimg to me, when i start having a conversation with him. anyway... that day was a pretty sian one.. but i spent my day looking around for my ideal hp, which is samsung E600C. haha.. and.. hmm... went to plenty of shops.. she kept on telling me that this thing can give jia ming, taht can give.. etc.. than.. i kept repeating myself. "this is a thing that guys give girls; and not vice versa." she keeps forgetting. haha...
made celestine really happy that day.. cos i was in a good mood ma. exmas had finally overed. and i felt so relieved and happy. felt more of myself. during my period of studying for my term 3 & 4 exams, i felt so stressed, and did not feel that i'm myself. felt very artificial; not the person i used to be. sigh.. that was my worst period of time. my junior Amnita, said i looked very stressed, whenever i come for band during that period of time. she had looked so worried for me.. how touching.. hee.. kk.. anyway, my reply was: "if you wish to lighten up my stress level, do me a favour by playing your clarinet well." hai.. which is quite true.. that will really lighten up for me.. feel less worried for my juniors. besides..
seriously speaking, i was spending a hard time concentrating to study.. got to really force myself to concentrate and study. cos.. half of my time, my mind would be thinking of jiaMing. hai.. anyway.. i did not accomplish the task of refraining from thinking of JiaMing.. in the end, i could only limit myself.. i was thinking: "If im able to get through all these dark times, and having a result of going to the first class, well.. i must really congratulate myself man..." haha...
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Monday.. went to school in the morning to collect my math results.. ha. ha.. well.. found out that i had scored 80 mks. haha.. i had originally scored 79.. but i had felt that a qs of mine in paper 1 was quite wierd.. thus i asked ms portia tan (she was taking our class that day), for that 1 mk.... hee... she gave me, admitting that there's a problem.. hahahaha.. actually right, i only go there for that 1 mk, trying to get that 1 mk for luck. never did i know that there's indeed a problem. haha.. well.. i dont need to count lar. cos both papers 1 & 2 of mine, is 40mks each. so.. 40+40= 80 lor.. simple. hmm.. i improved.. cos in my previous math paper, the difference between my mks and those top scoreres were like 20 mks? now.. haha.. 10 to less than 10. hahhahahha. BUT. priscilla scored 83. ha. and... till date, she's still unaware of mine.. haha.. i heard her talking on the phone, when i was walking pass her that day.
met jacob. she wanted me to help her to find out the number of people in class, going for the joseph performance.. following that, she asked me to email her by friday.. well.. was midly surprised.. but.. well.. i dont mind helping her. haha..
ha.. listen to this carefully.. according to the paper given to us that day:
3e1 offers: Pure Science & history (let me say the way mj told me when she wana discourage me from going in- 3'ple science, 3'ple humanities, double language n double math)
3e2 offers: Pure Biology, sub Physics & Chem & Geography
3e3 offers: (hmm.. sry.. not sure.. i only know that it offers geog, F&N/ D&T. haha..)
3e4 offers: (hmm.. sry.. not sure.. i only know that it offers history, F&N/ D&T. haha..)
went home... my dad brought me a Samsung E600C le!!! haha.. expensive leh... 400 plus leh.. sob.. now ive got 100 bucks only.. nvm.. im working remember? haha.. ya.. the ++, my dad helped me to subsidise.. hey.. iver been waiting for a new hp for so long le.. since june? i duno.. forgot le.. i only know, that's after my hp LCD screen had cracked. the moral of that story, was to take care of my belongings.. hee.. like what JiaMing says: "taking care is a muz". haha.. anyway.. i liked that hp. =) so.. brought my hp on the 1st Of November 2004.
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Tuesday.. started working for my aunt.. quite ok lar.. went to my dad place, at first.. he started a company with his Bros.. since he's no longer in NTU le.. started working for my Aunt.. some paper work.. pasted double sided tape.. etc.. my fingers was soon numb after that.. after that.. met my dad.. i searched for the cable that helps to transfer data, to the computer.. but have yet to brought it.
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Wednesday.. Band.. attendence was very poor.. ms tan bad mood again.... but she gave us the SYF set piece for next year.. hai.. it's Singapore Rhaspody, by Jacob De Hann.. a ratehr simple piece. It's one page, with.. 90 bars like that. and the song ar.. can't hold a candle to last yr's SYF set piece man. met mj.. ya.. and that ms tan kept calling me that day.. and looking at me, when she's talking.. not used to it.. anyway.. that day, was a full day band practice.. extermly boring.. band attendence aldready so poor le.. hai... still see a black face.. hai.. i did rather stay home and practice my clarinet lor... anyway.. hmm.. we've got to thank our last yr's and the 2 batch of seniors, 2 yrs ago.. cos of their subsequent winnings of the silver award for the previous SYF competitions, we get.. hmm.. i think 5K.. or 50K? 500K? i duno..anyway.. its money to the abnd lar.. so.. gotta thank our seniors.. for their hard work and preservearence.
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Thursday.. work again.. what else? haha...
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Friday.. band starts at 1pm.. hmm.. attendence was quite good.. so... a rather enjoyable bnd practice... some band members from another school came.. and alumni's like PeiRong, ZhiHui, Rizwan, and.. er.. yup. ChengYee came.. celebrated joyce's b'day. u want me to tell u a secret? well.. all the presents had been brought by me. i use my own money intially. after that, they paid me lar. hai.. anyway.. im so relieved that mingyan and joycie bda has been settled. hai.. next person. JiaMing!!! haha.. this ar.. more of stressful lar. i duno how also. and what a stupid idea of mine.. to buy 3 boxes. lol.. i one box now also having difficulty to finish le. haha.. my friends say i do til liek v ke lian like tt. lol.. no lar.. i dont mind.
went hoem after that.. changed to my home attire.. as Jaime, Ian and i had promised one another to do so.. well.. so.. went to school around 7 plus.. cos its a PSG night.. we went there to collect our report book.. the talk was extremly boring.. its a talk of homosexual.. well.. for those who knows me well.. well.. you can read my mind right.. hai... anyway..the talk was os boring, that i caught a teacher falling asleep. haha..
mrs jacob gave ian, jaime and i our repport book, saying that we were all in the same class. at that point, i could not believe my ears. i thought she was saying a joke. i opened it up. omg. im the 32th.. not so good lar.. but.. hey!! im in!!!!! i was so happy.. all smilez.. haha.. could not believe that im able to get into the first class lor.. haha.. hahahhahahaha.. so.. i was all smiles, and laughter when i recieved my report book, as i was still unable to believe my eyes. during her talking, i wasnt paying much attention to her, as i was still busy laughing. but i stopped laughing when she talked about the email i sended her the day before, and regarding the class outing. suddenly, she gave me her hp number.. i was quite surprised. she just gave me on the spot. even my dad was surprised.
want my results? k lor.. ive got 69.3%.. (ugh!! could not reach my target by 0.7%).. 6As, 3Bs, and 1C. well.. guess which subj has a C? ha. ha. Chinese lorhs.. hahhaha.. but.. nothing funny. so.. dont laugh. hee.. wasted.. hai.. 2 subjects of mine can get A de leh.. the 3 Bs i had was HomeEc, Art and English. for art, i could get an A with an extra 1 mark. HomeEc, 2 mks lor. English.. far off lar... i ve got 65. just nice.. ugh.. but.. i noticed that my weakest subjects are chinese, english, HomeEc followed by my Art. well.. the rest: math, science, geog, history, lit, D&T an A lor.. well.. my class positon is 11. hai.. missed my target by 1 step. level position.. 32 lor.. hai..
but hey.. i improved everything!!! =))))) thats what makes me happy. the importance in an exam is not whether you are better than the other anot. the importance here is how much you have improved. and.. the reason for you wanting to get into the first class is very important. ask yourself this: "do you want to get into the first class, due to wanting kto be in the elite class, or it's due to u having a passion in science??" for me, i wish to get into the first class, is due to the fact taht i have a strong passion in science. thus i always say: "i want to get into the pure science class!" and not saying that you wish to get into the first class. cbut.. in the end, i guess i still have to say that i wish to get into the first class, as the 2nd class offers pure science subjs too.. well... we shall see more about that, in my later entries.
ya.. ive won priscilla in percentage, and level position. haha... but whats the big deal? u study your very best, for yourselve, and for no other people. she had won me me in mid-yr exams. haha... well.. i created this quote for myself, last night. "I may not win you now. But that does not means that i will not win you at the end of the race." how true.. though winning a person at the present, will help in your chances of winning at the end of the day. Another quote: "success comes from perseverance, dilligence, confidence & modesty."
again.. mrs jacob's remarks of me was kinda wierd.. "Although Kelly appeared a little stressed this semester, she was able to cope with the demands of her academic and co-curricular activities quite well. She persvered and was very dilligent." er.... how funny. hahahhaha.. but all the stuff she said, was prior to the talks she had with me.. asked me why i so stress.. for what.. showed her disapproval of the band practices dates.. could tell she wanted me to quite the band.. ya... long story. hai.. anyway.. mj says that our position in the classes next year are yet to be confirmed. but.. she assured me that im in into the 3e1 class leh. well.. we will geet to know it on friday, 12nn. nvm.. cant enter, i can sms, call, or email mj. haha.. she cant run away from me. =P no llar.. not so bad. cant abuse the privillege ive got. hee..
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saturday? i duno.. duno where to start. 4 ur info, today is on the 9th.. tue.. so... i duno leh.. hey.. remb le. ya.. went out with mingyan and xingfang early in the morning. went to the buisness district (....)... in fact, the whole outing wsnt interesting at all. only knew we ate at Hanns. ya.. that was when i realised that... wow.. xingfang has a really good appetite man.. kk.. ate our lunch at raffles place at 11 in the morning. haha.. following that, went Plaza Singapura.. very boring man.. haa.. thats what they feel. but theres only 1 shop which interests me. hahhahahha.. YAMAHA shop!! hee.. spent my time looking at the clarinets, flutes and saxophones. ha ha.. in the end, they went to my house. .. how lame. we started off at clementi. in the end, we end off at my house. er.. haha.. so.. they went to my house. as usal.. no one at home. who else do u expect. wonder why people like to get into my house so much. haha.. so.. just treat them like guests lor.
after staying at my house for almost 2 hrs, they went to school. i jus tagged along, but wearing my home attire. this time, even more causal. haha.. went into the clas room.. mrs jacob announced that the 2nd class will be a pure science class too. i was devasted at that point. jaime also went to school.. so the both of sat at the back of the classroom, admist of our worried classmates. cos they've yet to have taken their report books. but we had taken it teh day before le ma. so... we sat from 4pm till late 6pm. finally, the room cleared. mrs jacob looked up, and signalled for us to get over. we gor over that, and started chatting with mrs jacob. asked her why she said i looked stressed. her reply was: "ya ma.. you look so stressed everyday, kelly.." she replied me this way, as i was qiote causal with her that day.. talked to her like a friend, but of course, with respect lar.. than said lots of jokes, which made her and my friends laugh.
while helping mj, we just chat.. i complained to her about the 2nd class thingy, and she explained to me. hai.. she gave jaime and i plenty of ides on how to organise the class event.. again.. when she talked to me.. wah.. stare into my eyes for so long.. pretty uncomfortable.. she doesnt look away from my eyes, when she's talking to me de. so.. not v nice lar. ya.. haha.. mingyan, xingfang, jaime, celest and i took plenty of pics together using my hp that day. haha.. so.. i took a picture with mrs jacob, using my hp. hee..
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sunday.. i only can remember the fact taht i started sms'ing Mrs jacob.. ... we msg'ed each other for the whole day. haha.. anyway.. ya! haha.. i remb le!!! =) i went to my gugu's house with my dad. cos he needs to discuss buisness issues with them. wow.. the whole family talks really loud huh.. listen to them v funny leh. they woudl talk to my dad in canto, and he would reply them in mandarin. haha.. always that way. i guess i listen to too much canto and hokkien le. find it really hard to differentiate between the 2 of them. thought im a cantonese... haha..
ya.. actually i went there to check out my uncle's music cd's.. sure.. he has plenty of them. they are really kind people. at first, they allow me to get in to see their cd's.. following that, they insists to help me burn for me.. instead of me bringing them back home to burn. they are using their own discs leh.. really touched. hmm.. at night.. ate dinner with them.. ugh.. ate frog. haha.. than.. my aunt drive my dad and i home lor.. ha! that's it.
ya.. while she was driving us home,
we passed by a funeral, that is so near yet so far, my house.cos it's erm... at the main road.. and.. you know.. my house is extremly far in from the main road.. instead i stay near the express way ma.. so.. passed by this funeral. it wasnt an ordinary one, as there were so many people!!!! i was quite impressed... all of us wondered who's this dead person.. hmm.. must be a rather influential person.. sure enough.. next day. the straits times reported that the funeral, is Huang Na's funeral.. 1000 people attended. now wonder i saw so many people! hai.. wasted.. could not send my condolenses. hai.. anyway.. i feel that e idiotic person who had kidnapped her, was so heartless. hai.. he disgraced our nationality, which cause others to have a wrong impression that singaporeans are such heartless and cold animals. hmph.. what a disgrace. but.. luckily, there were lots of people, who had tried in vain to help her mom.. hai... luckily man.. haha..
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monday.. yesterday.. er.. today's not the 7th.. but the 9th. just that i had start writting this entry since the 7th. haha.. hmm.. went to work. my aunt drove me to work.. i just help her with some of the accounts issues.. regarding abouts debts. found out that her company; Targa. consists of only 4 people. the manager, which is my uncle. sales accountant; my aunt. graphics designer, a young man. and a production operator.. ha. isnt that marvelous? but.. not much of work done that day.. hmm.. yup. that's my 3rd time working for her. and she just paid me my salary.. 60 bucks. haha.. 3 days 60. 1 day, 20. why leh.. cos i usally only start work on a half day only. that's why.. i intend to give 100 to my mom, save 200 bucks.. and the 50-100, i can give into consideration, if i wana use it anot. haha..
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tuesday.. yeterday again.. cos today is the 10th le. lolx.. there's band practice.. half day.. joyce passed us the band schedule le.. at last. cos ive got no fixed schedule.. ... so many practices.. but.. expected lar. hai.. attendence in the band, as usal, very little people. but.. not my section that day!!!!! =) haha.. everyone was present. Tanshin, Joyce, Nuraini, Me, Priscilla, Amnita, Hamimah, Radhia, XuanHui & Vivian. all the 10 people who are able to come, were presnt. so nice of nuraini!! she always drop by and help us....
heard that rongshan is coming back soon. well.. dread that moment.. hai.. talking about her.. ms tan wana scold her le.. if im not wrong, pingchie todl ms tan.. according to her, she says rongshan is a tyrant leader, who only abuses her power. this causes no harmony and bonding in the band. and.. she says the politics problem, is a result from rs.. well.. im not here to brainwash people.. but.. just.. let u listen.. but.. i feel theres a little propaganda in this few sentence.. well.. im not sure about that. cos i always believe that theres bound to be some negative points of taht person. no one is perfect. if you can say other people, why can't you say yourselve? tahts why when i dislike a person, i always refrain from saying my reasons, or even elaborate.. cos in fear of brainwashing my friends. so.. the most i wil say, is that i dislike this person. thats all. everyone of us have our own opinion.. its just what kind of perspective do you look at things. that's why, 2 person can say both optimistic and pestimistic of the same partocular person..
so. ms tan started telling tanshin not to follow rongshan footsteps.. cos she caught tanshin dropping weixing pushup, the otehr day.. er.. i duno.. hmm.. but in my opinion, tanshin was right to drop weixing pushup ma.,.. cos he was fooling around in the squad. hai.. this thig ar.. the way a leader control a band, very sensitive issue lar.. thus, after much thinking, i do not wish to eb a band major le. for ur info, the assistant namd and drum majors are not doing their job well at all lor. both weijun and felicia are always absent!! forget it. next year ar.. selection of leaders ar.. im not going to propse being a band major lor... and.. i hope they dont choose me. pray hard man.. as long as prisc not any sort of leader, i happpy. anyone i dont mind.. and.. ya. bryant too. lol. ya!! and no christina plzz. haha.. hmm.. thats all. other tahn priscilla, bryant or christina.. i dont mind any other person being any leader.
during band.. hai.. i duno whats wrong with radhia.. shes still stuck.. with playing a note or something, when ms tan ask her to do so. hai... feeling worried and sorry for radhia. but.. im still unable to understand her. from what i can tell, the sec 3s and i are all feeling so worried for her. wonder why cant she be worried for herself. hai.. i really duno what to say le. hai.. ms tan ask us to play Bb scale, she cant reach the high notes, which the sec ones can do it. etc.. hai.. doesnt she feels embarresed? is she does.. why cant she buck up?? i dont understand heer man. hai.. priscilla ar... hai.. always scorn and laugh at her.. hai.. if theres one thing i dislie of her, is that she does not respct authority. she says back, etc. well... im not here to brainwash anyone.. hai.. but.. really im unhappy with her lor.
before exams, she kept telling me that she will win me in position. cos she was unhappy by the fact that i had won her in lots of stuffs. u know what i told her? in an indignant voice, i told her :" you say want ar.. than you better keep your word. you say say, make sure you better do it." with that, i kept laughing. somehow rather, i wasnt blown away by her words at all. haha.. just felt very confident deep in myself, that i will win her. which i had really won her in the end. almost had a heated argument with her on the phone teh other time. cos she was saying that ppl must speak up.. say back the seniors, etc.. in other words, disobey lar. so.. obviously, im not happy lar. hai..
after band.. had fun by playing first clarinet song & dance piece.. haha.. very nice leh.. i played with weixing, while he played his tromone part.. felt that my playing had improved. sure enough.. joyce went to me, and told me that my tone had improved. hee.. she sat next to me.. hai.. my samsung hp was in my hp pouch, and i placed it at the back of my chair. she saw, and suspected it was a new hp... so.. she took and see.. and.. as usual liek most people do. said a woah. and start playing. within seconds, she started giggling.. i looked at my hp sharpky, and caught her reading my sms. ugh.. she was laughing.. saying " sms.. haha". the flautist heard.. hai.. than the whole gang excluding huiying of cus, crowded around me.. saying jia mIng ar? jia ming isit? hai.... forget it.. joyce saw jia ming msg le. hai.. had to avoid the flautist and prisc qs after that. hai.. sian. foumd out taht the rumour about jia ming and i together, started from aloysius. hai..
was looking at my entries.. hmm.. v interesting.. seeing my words of disappointment, melancholy, anxiety, anger, etc.. very interesting. haha.. hee.. ive come so far!!! i had so much disappointment with my science results in the past.. that i dropped the hope of scoring an A for my science. but here i am!!!! ive scored an A le!!!!!!!!! woah!!!!!!!!!! haha.. estasic with glee lar. haha..
lots of holiday assignments.. haha.. math, chinese, science and social studies. chinese ar.. terror.. tidied up my room a few nights ago.. looked through all my sec 2 stuffs.. sigh.. hmm.. what a happy ending. lolx...
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