● @ Tuesday, October 19, 2004 ●
had art exam today.. ok lar.. after that.. chinese oral. lol.. disastrious.. lol.. my chinese invigilator was ms lim seow wei (Mr Pek's wife- confirmed le).. last year was ms ji.. i talk like what, she still pass me.. haha..though this year, my oral passage was worst. lots of words ah.. duno how to read.. can tell that she's trying her best to pass me.. or should i say, i feel that way.. haha... hai... nevertheless, my ,mood was not affected a single bit.. chinese mar.. hai.. but.. im still feeling worried; of course.
for the first time in my life: played a basketball match with my friends, after school... and doing it without a mr tham telling us to do so.. hmm.. that was only 11 plus.. after the art exams, and chinese oral comlete finish.. played till about 1 plus.. my class guys wanted to join in, but we objected.. cuz boys are naturally a better basketball player... thats what i feel.. or at least, better than a girl. ugh... play till perspire alot.. i really wonder why my friends could play throughout the whole game, without their blouses coming out... hmm.. their blouse must be really very long...
-----------------------------------------------
ya. before i forget. saw the new school uniform last week, when i was staying back in school, to study with celestine.. it's sooooooooooooooooooooo nIcE!!!!! er... the girls one lar.. haha.. boys want.. i diddnt really notice much.. cos i was busy adoring over the girl's uniform.. well.. lower sec shall have yellow blouse, and upper sec, shall have grey blouse.. like what ms solastri said: "printed school batch on collar since we do not remeber to put it on.. and shirts that are not needed to be tucked in, since our shirts always comes out."
the batch is rather big.. in a black and white colour.. the bottom of the girl's uniform, is skorts (skirt, with a pair of shorts inside).. sounds wierd.. but it doesnt look wierd.. in fact, it looked nice to me.. hmm.. wondering if that a good news anot.. but its a mini skirt.. dark checkered ones.. hmm.. but overall, i felt that it looked like an outisde clothing.. haha.. quite a nice taste, ms solastri has!! i really feel like congratulating her for her perfect taste of designing a school uniform...
-----------------------------------------------
reached home.. 1pm.. so early.. hai.. now im here... hai.. serving the net.. trying to drown my depression.. shift my thoughts away from my exams.. but still.. to no success... whats the school trying to do.. kill me with depression and anxiety ar.. give me 2 days break.. can die le.. hai.. next practice, i found out from joyce, is this friday.. hai.. another worry, huh? cuz i did not go for the last band practice, before the exam break (if i had know it, i would have came).. well.. tanshin knew the reason for my poor attendence, before the break, was that cuz i wana return home to study.. hai.. i can never hide anything from her de.. she knows too well le.. anyway.. ya.. so she told me, that she expects my hard work to reflect in my results.. hai.. said i can go first class (i wrote before).. hai.. just dont really like it.. cuz i feel that she's putting stress in me. hai. but i dont blame her, as it's natural that i must have some results, after skipping so much practices.
hai.. so.. my clarinet is not with me.. sob.. i cant even practice. im prepared for the worst man.. hai.. yes, i know that if you are a good player, you will still sound well. but you think im a good clarinetist? like what lor.. hai.. so.. i cant understand ppl who says that im a good player.. if u compare me with the rwong person, you are sad to say, right. how wierd.. i pity for people that are weaker than me.. really feel very compassionate for them.. however, i still always want to be the best. isnt this ironical? cuz if you wish to be the best, how can you achieve your wish, of making others not feeling inferior, or disappointed? sigh.. life's unfortunately is just like that.. whether you like it a not.. hai..
k.. erm.. my mind now duno where i wana continue le.. cuz was talking to someone.. haha... hmm.. so.. ya... dont feel very confident of my results... hai.. here am i being so worried.. and priscilla signs in in msn msgr now.. hmm.. forgot what i wana say le.. haha... anyway.. im in a better mood le.. cuz of Jia Ming!!! =) k.. shall end off.. cuz i cant think of anything to say le..
Savour Every Moment
