● aiming for >70% for my overall @ Thursday, October 28, 2004 ●
here cos i wana take a break for a while.. too tired le.. been home yesterday.. than study non-stop from afternoon till night.. sleep.. wake up.. do math in class for the whole day.. and here i am.. so.. a little sian with math. hmm.. ya.. forgot to say one thing too.. cos mr mohan started giving us math classes after school... i was quite surprised that our first and last after school tution, only half of the class attended. lol. think they so smart ar.. make sure they get full marks. hai.. hmm.. so.. that was on tuesday.. sec 2s express studenst were excused from band practices..
anyway.. my group was one of the thinking programme groups, which got selected by mr terence leong.. a guy in my group and i were told to present our group's presentation in front of some audiences. i intitailly thought my audience were the whole sch (of cuz, excluding the sec 4s).. so.. was quite nervous.. but it turned out that my audience were only the sec 1s n 2s. hahaha.. lucky me.. haha.. so.. stood on the stage say lor.. missed quite a lot of lessons.. due to the reshersal in the morning, which consisted 2 hours.. after the guy and i presented our rehersal, mr leong told us that he sees that we've got a good potential.. hmm.. but im just wondering, potential in what way? haha.. so.. say in front of the sec 1s n 2s..
i was having stage fright, after i start speaking to the audiences. cos eye contact ma.. thus i start feeling nervous.. my whole hand was shaking so terribly.. so.. quite hard to see the paper i was holding. haha.. but my classmates later told me that i had looked and sounded extremly calm throughout my whole talk. haha.. that's good. so you are not able to notice that im feeling nervous, when im actually am, unless you noticed my shaking hand.. haha..
wed.. yesterday.. morning.. Mrs Jacob let us see our overall marks for our subjects.. (that is going to appear in our report card- other than our math results). after looking at it, i felt disappointed. with each passing subject grade my eyes met, my heart sank wven lower. but my feelings were rather different from my previous ones.. i felt only disappointment.. nothing else. no sadness, or melancholic feelings. so.. with a down heart, i went to the hall to join my IPW group, where we set up our booth for the IPW exhibition.
my spirits went slightly higher in the hall... that was when i had explained our product to lots of people. thus, my mind was rather diverted.. was concentrating more on the talking, than thinking of my results. but deep down in my heart, there's still a certain sense of disappointment in myself. i repeated everything i say so frequently, that i could remeber exactly what to say le. the best listener is the teachers. cos they gave their own ideas, and opinions.
afternoon.. mrs jacob came to class.. gave an applause to the 2 IPW groups, that were selected.. following that, she read out our current class position, and percentage.. about our math thingy, im not too sure how she calculated.. but the best thing she had said, was that this thing isnt a final one, cos we still have our math paper to change our results. well.. my percentage is 68.6%.. well... improved lar.. but.. i was quite surprised that i was still closed to my previous class postion which is 10. cos.. like what i said, i was severely disappointed due to the results i had seen in the morning.. so.. had not expect quite a high postition...
well... hai.. my percentage has increased.. but not my postition leh... but.. haha.. theres one thing im glad of. i had won priscilla in class position.. well.. mid yr, prisc- 9. me, 10. my class monitress-11. now, im- 11. monitress,- 12. priscilla- 13. haha.. how funny. hai.. but i dropp leh.. ugh.. i must get 70 percent and above!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
found out from radhia, that her FT- mrs lindy goh, gave her class their level position and percentage. hers was 66% like that.. and her level position is 51. ugh.. after a brief menatl calculation, since MJ refuses to tell us our level position, i guess im currently like the 40 plus, for my level position. cos im 68.6%.. and.. 66% is 51th position le.. she can enter into 3e2. ugh!!!!!! hai.. thats why i say i must get 70%, to have my position fixed in 3e1. hai.. really hope that i wont be the number 41, in my final result, after we have taken our math paper which is tmr. felt a little worried for mingyan. shes now so worried that she will enter to 3e3. cos her percentage is 62% i think.. hai... hope that she could at least enter into 3e2. how funny.. she wants to enter to 3e2, and me, 3e1. sigh.. hai..
so.. our fate really depends on how we do for our math paper, which is tommorow. since math has a higher weightage somemore.. sigh.. i must score!!!!!! really hope that my overall percentage would be 70 over. thus, im than assured that i could enter into 3e1 next year.
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