● @ Sunday, September 26, 2004 ●
made a huge mistake.. open up a file.. it was tittled "jm".. so. also my mistake lar.. haiz.. i opened it up.. well.. its a conversation box.. so bad luck.. it was the one which made me really upset de.. haiz.. when i read abt the Mr Wong issue, i thought it was nothing much lar.. but as i continued reading, i knew what was going to happen in the conversation. but i continued reading.. haiz. should not have done so lar.. i read till the part where i was abt to tell him something.. haiz.. at the point, i immediately stopped reading. and just simply closed the window without thinking twice.. cuz when i was about to tell him something, at that point, that day.. (youth day), i knew i was really upset le.. so.. i immediately closed the window.. not wanting to read it again.
unfortunately.. my reading of it.. haiz.. too late.. it got an effect on me, after reading it.. feeling depressed.. wondering what does he mean.. cuz my mind is clearer yesterday, than that day after he told me.. thats obvious right.. haiz.. but this simply shows that im still quite vulnerable to being upset.. well..
we have lots of problems in our life. but it's simply up to our decisions, whether or not we wish to think about them.. yes.. some of them seems inevitable to think about.. well.. than that's ur fault right?? that you do not try hard enough to prevent yourselves from thinking such stuff.. haiz..
i donnoe why... but while i was clearing my study desk in the afternoon, it just suddenly came across me.. that priscilla will be in the same class as me next year.. sob.. haiz.. i DONT WANT to be in the same class as her!!!! argh.. haiz.. but looks like fate has done that.. firstly.. look at our class position for mid-yr.. she's so near yet so far from me.. just oNe. position ahead of me.. haiz..
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