● @ Wednesday, August 18, 2004 ●
never knew that this day would be such an uneventful day for me. haiz.. but.. i think the wrd 'haiz' in not a big feeling enough to express how i feel now. haiz.. this morning.. haiz.. placed my hp into my bag.. cuz im wearing the slightly smaller pocket skirt todae.. so placed it into my bag without thinking.. haiz.. thinking back, si should not have done so, or even bring my handphone along to school...........
first part of the day.. started with chinese.. we wrote letter writting.. we were in class... than d&t lesson.. we d&t students- all girls, left the classroom. homec students got to cook... so left the classroom too.. haiz.. so the class was left unattended... and our classroom door was spoilt a long time ago..
after d&t, we girls went back to class to place our d&t apron into our bags. mingyan wanted to leave the classroom to do lit hw.. (we had to return to class immediatley after recess without assembling). the wierd is thing is that the moment i stepped into the classroom the first i think i had thought was 'thieft'. haiz...
sure enough... lots of ppl suddenly screamed. their valuables were stolen. a diskman, (299 bucks), 4 cd's.. and a hp. most of the gals cried. i tried consoling them.. haiz.. the girl who lost her diskman was quite angry... i wanted to call the girl's lost girl's hp number. so i went to my bag to take my hp.
to my horror, i found that my hp was stolen. haiz.. for a moment i was not able to believe it. everywhere was like suddenly so silent to me.. my heart panicked.. yet.. i wa not able to find it in my bag. i was so sure that my hp was impossible to be stolen. cuz it has an internal crack.. haiz.. well.. so.. my hp was stolen too.
with a mysterious smile, i went to the other end of the class, where cheryl & junfu who had lost their cds.. and mingyan.. though she had no valuables... i walked towards them. the whole place was like a din. cuz ppl were crying and shouting in anger. i said in a whisper and a smile:"my hp is stolen too." they were shocked. i started laughing.. soon, they laughed in union with me. they got my meaning- who's the dim-witted to steal a hp, with a cracked screen, that no one except me, can look at a single word in it! that's why i despise sms'ing.. or reading msg's...
after a huge laughing. i finally said that the person is out of his mind to steal my hp. but.. yar.. haiz.. my hp is lost for good.. haiz.. i doubt it can be retrived back.. haiz.. but what i cared most, is not the hp itself. it's the hp msgs!!!!!!!!!! after reccess ended which we spent in the classroom, i finally felt really unfair.. why must i part with those msgs?? why cant i keep it? haiz.. at first, i lost those msgs in VCH last sundae.. now, hp lost. with card. meaning msgs too lor. haiz..
after reccess, history... i was in a very foul mood. i was aldready very saddened by my loss.. which is mainly the msgs.. not the hp.. yet.. me, leading the group cuz todae gotta do roleplay.. have to control the group. the boy who so call likes me... got a huge yelling from me. cuz he wasnt paying attention in what ive got to tell the group. i was so d**** angry and fed-up with him. ask him to listen to me, he tell me his own opinions about other stuff.
i say him le, he no difference de. so i really wondered if he's deaft or what. can u imagine how angry i was. in the end, i gave up. i stood there, watch them talk or the crap they want. i aldready felt so helpless by my loss, yet not complaining a word or cry yet. for the first time, my eyes started watering. haiz.. one of the boys noticed, and immediately looked rather guilty. haiz..
my group scored 16/20.. quite surprised.. cuz i was rather unahppy with their co-ordinations.. i was quite aware that everyone was observing me.. so... felt rather awkward. mrs goh.. or karen? congratulated me. erm.. wierd.
anyway.. mr mohan sat next to me during math lesson when the training teacher taught us.. for the first time, he looked at my graph book.. all 3 of them. luckily ive completed the 2 bks le.. so not that embarresing.. he asked the same common qs. are u all right? haiz.. sian.. suspect something to do with mrs jacob's talk.
dm found some of my classmates belongings.. but not mine. all of them were tampered with.. making most of my friends really upset. but none of them could prove that it was really theirs. haiz.. anyway... mine wasnt found. hope the thief does not know me.. during form teacher's period.. mrs jacob was talking about the incident.. talk, talk, talk about the thieft thing.. haiz.. i could not stand it. in the end, tear drops came out. haiz.. i guess MJ saw that.. haiz.. so when she suddenly call me, i had to blink my eyelash a couple of times to make that tear disappear. haiz.. cuz ppl always like to turn around.. haiz.. was typing in the msn grp.. calling mrs j, MJ felt it wierd. cuz hmm... JM. haiz.. jm sounds nicer.. haiz..
after school.. most of us stayed in class.. did our math hw.. than have break.. than the trainning teacher gave us re-test for my math paper. ha.. there's a possibility for myself scoring full marks. finsih off, almost 4pm le.. met mrs jacob halfway.. thank god she talking to another teacher... if not she surely wanna talk de.. haiz.. but she's a caring teacher after all..
ate my luch alone in the canteen... the canteen only had a group of boys talking, mr wong and i eating. very the awkward. mr wong made myself sound so pathetic aGain. when i was sick, he exaggerate so much.. when i eat my lunch at 4, he say liek i very pitiful.. so busy.. sian.. than went upstairs.. for band.
the band only started warming up. the new conductor helping ms tan was there... i was staring at him when i entered. my second time seeing him. quite glad to play my clarinet le.. almost 2 weeks nvr play.. cuz last week sick. the previous, too busy. my mouth was a little tired upon playing my first note.. but it was quite easy afterwards. managed to catch up pretty easily. thats good news. ha.
after band.. mai, rachel and nuraini gave a whole lot of lecturing from almost everything about the band. haiz.. very sad to say, i feel that its a sad case, whenevr i think of tsmb. haiz.. promised peirong that i'll go to her poly band concert le.. cant back up... btw.. this saturday going compassvale sec for band exchange progg.
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