● @ Saturday, August 07, 2004 ●
felt depressed last night.. called my pri school friend. haha.. haiz.. she's my good friend i primary school... and i felt a little guilty. cuz i knew i had not really missed her as much as she missed me.. haiz.. and.. haiz.. she told me she had very little friends in her new school.. than ask me if i isit have alot of friends in my new school.. haiz.. i told her i had not so much of friends.. well... but.. that's not exactly true actually. so i felt guilty..
following that, we dicussed on teacher's day celeb.. not celebrities lar. lol.. the celeb will be on 31/08.. well.. i think i'll be quite busy on that day.. haiz.. mrs jacob is a nice teacher.. my class being her form class, wanna have an after school celebration for her. okie.. than after that, i also wanna go back to my pri school.. see my teachers.. also can see my classmates and schoolmates again.. meanwhile, my pri 6 classmates, wanna go and find our form teacher.. she's in another school.. around choa chu kang that side.. haiz.. so far.. looks like i got to sacrfice some events on that day.. and.. ha. my b'day. hee... k.. wadever.. haha... and some ppl v de funny leh.. they start wishing me happy b'dae le.. haha.. wonder if they know when's my b'day.
but.. i no face to see my pri 6 chinese teacher.. cuz my chinese still *ucks. the worst part is when i have to write her a teacher's day card. omg.. dead le.. that's when she will be able to see how terrible my chinses is.. or rather, still is. sometimes, i think it's better to write in english. haha.. but i did not do so.. cuz it's like so wierd.. writting in eng to your chinese teacher.
why do i say that my chinese still *ucks. cuz my chinese spelling always fail de. there was a time, when i felt it was so hopeless doing it, that i pass up a blank paper, with only 2 qs answered, which i think i know the answer. and ya.. with my name on it. i deliberately wrote my name rather untidily. haha... and i wrote my name as cai jia. haha... not jia ling. haiz.. so stupid.. heehee.. but.. im not that ashamed, of scoring almost zero everytime, than some classmates of mine, who constantly score 100. why? they score zero, not cuz of their effort, myabe yes lar, their effort in copying. haha.. they copied from the chinese book into the spelling paper.. so my chinese teacher is always very angry.. she would tell us that is we want to copy so much, she will give us lots of chinese writtings to do.
when i see my classmates copying, obviously i feel unhappy lar. cuz i didn't study, they also diddn't study, yet they score full marks, and i fail. where's the justice? so i always complain to lyefong about it.. she ask me why i dont copy. i told her one sentence: "Honesty To Strive". Isn't that one of the school motto? that is why till today, i dont copy.. and off course, due to that i still get bad marks. but nevertheless, i will still refuse to copy. even when lye fong always offer me her paper to copy.
they might be able to copy now... but.. they cant do do during exams, isnt it? though there might be some smart aleck, like Priscilla Yee, copying over student's shoulders for answers, when the teacher is not looking during exam.. haiz.. so risky. but.. i do not accuse others without reason. i've seen with my own eyes, of her doing it. that's one of the reason, why she dislike me. cuz im one of the witness. and.. our character just can't match. she's one out going and extremely frank person, not me. haiz.. whatever it is, her character and mine can never match. myabe one similarity. we both have a strong passion of music. but that's so easy to find. haha..
freinds say that im one, who's both frank and yet i can say things in an indirect way. ironical? but i get their meaning.. yes, im frank.. if i feel that eg.. ur bag is not nice.. i'll bring the message across to you. yet, i will not hurt your feelings. haha.. that's why thy say that i'm very good in saying things indirectly.. so u'll get the hint.. haha.. i just play around with words.. this will sometimes cause some confusion with my friends.
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