● haiz. @ Saturday, July 10, 2004 ●
Friday.. yesterday.. haiz. so much hw given to us.. i've got chinese spelling to learn, math, science ws, literature ws, and research, history wb.. and research.. lucky our eng teacher dont want to give us hw this week.. but she told us she's going to give us an argumentative essay next week.. yipee!! haiz.. (ironical..)
There's this email.. it's called olivia_jacob@hotmail.com.. it's been adding ppl in my class, at the msn messenger, and at friendster. but..i doubt it's the real mrs jacob leh.. perhaps it's more of my inner feelings/ instinct lar.. btw.. i've got quite a good six sense.. haha.. but.. it's not v nice to have that kind of instinct some time..
I finally knew why i've never seen mrs jacob in teh school canteen before.. i was wondering last time, hw she have her meals.. yester, during lesson times, a teacher want me to look for mrs jacob.. as mrs jacob can be found at the staff room back door, i went there to look for her.. i dislike going there, as you've got to shout teh teacher's name.. and wait for some reply.. so.. it's like talking to yourself.. cuz teh teachers there, can chose, if they wish to reply us anot. so i was calling for mrs jacob's name.. no one replied me.. i was about to leave, when mrs valarie ng came out.. i'm surprised that she could recognise my voice.. haha.. she lead me to another room at the ground floor.. telling me that mrs jacob always go there to microwave her food.. so i've managed to find mrs jacob, thx to mrs valarie ng!!
after school... go for band... school is dismissed at 12.35.. band.. 1.45.. so late.. i think cuz the sec 3s are dismissed later lar.. found a perucssion board on a table, unattended.. found out later that felicia had left it on the table, forgotten. spent my time teaching aloy the clarinet.. cuz he was quite interested in it.. than tech him how to repair the clarinet... if the keys are sticky, etc.. aqm teaching another aqm.. haha..
following that we play noarh's ark.. tough piece man. haiz.. can say that i'm the only second clarinet player.. cuz amnita is playing with me.. erm.. not really plaing lar. can say more of sitting next to me, listening.. haha.. radhia n prisc playing third.. haiz.. radhia ar. but surprisingly, i was able to catch up bits and pieces in the song.
I've typed finish the headings for the band room cardbards but.. have missed out some section.. so.. got to redo some of them.. ttype new ones.. ha. managed to save 12 bucks this week.. actually can save 15 bucks de... but 2 bucks given to charity.. for the community chest.. youth day.. 1 buck lended to priscilla.. last week saved 20 bucks!! lol.. duno how i managed to do so also.. go back home.. surfed the net for a while..
met jiaming online.. felt very depressed... after meeting him onlne.. duno y my meeting with him, also affect my day today.. haiz.. met him online just now too... haiz.. hope it doesnt mae my situation worst.. haiz.. tmr.. i' going online too... haiz.. i'm i a dillemia.. i duno what i want also.. haiz.. half of myself wish to chat with him... but.. the other, is refaining to see him online tmr.. cuz.. tmr is a sunday... haiz... he had made me v sad last sunday.. youth day.. haiz.. but.. i dont blame him.. frankly.. i never blame jiaming for anything. haha.. yes.. angry with him.. at times.. but.. ive never blammed him for anything he does...
did not come for band today.. cuz i'm feeling quite sick.. haiz. so.. no clarinet at home.. duno teh seniors want me to play second or third clarinet.. haiz.. my file v wierd de.. haha.. cuz have both second and third clarinet pieces.. a person not looking at it carefully, will ask me why i've got two exact pieces.. haha. haiz.. lots of hw.. i still wish to study my favorite science.. than after that got to study that idiotic chinese spelling.. chinese su_ks man... when i grow up ar.. i will make sure i will NEVER be a chinese or a history teacher man.. when i told my father that, he told me that if i'm a chinese teacher in future, i would be the student's favorite teacher. haha.. history lesson is superb sian.. actually.. i think history is quite an interesting subject.. but.. my teacher made it so boring... which teacher ar? i've ever mention it.. but.. i'm not saying again. ha.
Science Is Fantastic! Science Is Fantastic! Science Is Fantastic!
Yay!! I managed to made 2 person understand the basics of refraction perfectly well liao.. yeah.. i taught lyefong and celestine about refraction.. i made them understand what's refraction all about... examples... why would we see a vitual (not virture! lol.) object above the object, if we look into the water.. i taught the both of them seperately.. am i am glad they had understand it very well, after i've taught them... the best success, is when i teach celestine.. cuz before i teach her, she was clueless... she does not know th meaning of dense, etc.. so.. it took me a long time to make her understand everything.. but.. it was worthhile in the end. Cuz after that, she understood it very well! yay.. credits go to me!! haha.. no lar.. it's all right if she scores better than me after that. Just glad that i am able to help my friend. After teaching celest, shuqing wanna me to teach her. ugh.. haha.. no.. i told her. "another day."
I dont understand why my classmates got to look at the science textbook, for answers, to a qs.. why cant they memorise? for goodness sake.. you are not allowed to look at the tb during exams.. cant they get all the facts by heart? i feel it's irritating to see how poor their memory is. If i can get all the facts by heart, why can't they? and pls think logically.
Asked my dad the science qs yesterday.. he helped my clarify all my doubts in my science liao.. yay.. i asked him about the light reflecting back to eye.. the type of colour teh light is.. and if it shines on an object with a specific type of colour. he explained to me, faster than mrs jacob explainning to the class. yet.. i can get it.. but not in mrs j's class.
Tommorow.. haiz... whatever lar. haiz.. anyway.. my mom want me to go for my tution on a sunday.. instead of a thursday. haiz... Haiz....... I really duno what to do about that jia ming and i matter... haiz.. I noticed that i would also think about him, or rather, the matter.. when i've got nothing to do.. walking home.. or during band practices.. esp when ms tan is talking. czu so sian mar. haiz..... i duno what to do next... like my msn nick... at a complete loss, of what to do next. and for goodness sake ppl, stop asking me what happened... cuz me not saying anything... and i dont want anyone's consolation, or advise. Cuz u would talking crap. cuz it's onl ur guess of what has happen mar. i appreciate your concern, but i prefer to think about it my own. I've got a mind and a brain of my own.. so let me think for myself. haiz.. me being depressed, wont affect you right? so please leave me alone.. the more advises or consolation you give me, you are going to make me more confuse and depress in my thougts. and. Jiaming, If you are reading.. do me a favour: "Don't feel guilty; cuz it's not totally your fault."
Haiz.. i feel like i'm walking round and round i circles. haiz.. history is indirectly repeating itself. ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I feel like i cant take it. &.. i'm going to put that same old lock pretty soon. wait till i find that html from my old blogger template.
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